Nama yang Sama

Harusnya aku melupakanmu, sejak kamu memutuskan sebaiknya hubungan kita tidak perlu dilanjutkan. Jangan bilang aku tidak mencobanya. Setiap ada kesempatan, aku melakukannya. Tapi, selalu kembali ke titik ini, dimana lagi-lagi aku berdoa semoga kita dipersatukan oleh-Nya.

Entah kenapa aku tidak pernah berhasil berhenti mencintaimu. Selalu gagal berhenti berharap kamu akan kembali merangkul dan menggandeng tanganku. Setiap karunia kecil dari-Nya mengantarku pada kemungkinan akan mendapat karunia terindah dari-Nya, yaitu kamu.

Naif memang. Karena setiap hari berganti, jarak di antara kita rasanya semakin jauh. Namun, masih nama yang sama di hatiku. Namamu.

Aku berharap kamu akan terganti suatu hari, secepatnya, dengan seseorang yang mampu membuatku kembali jatuh cinta, dan memperlakukanku jauh lebih baik dibanding kamu. Meski kadang, aku berharap jalan kita hanya belum bersisian. Secepatnya kita akan dipersatukan. Dan namamu terukir selamanya di hatiku.

Remembering You (again)

Membicarakanmu entah kenapa tak pernah ada bosannya bagiku. Mungkin karena di semestaku kau lah yang terindah meski tak tergapai. Sesekali kita beriringan. Sesekali aku melihatmu di sudut jalan. Namun, tak pernah lagi mata kita berpandangan. Tak lagi sungging senyum terkembang. Hanya seribu diam yang ada. Mungkin, bagimu, aku tak lagi nyata.

Banyak yang datang dan pergi, bahkan tak kembali. Beberapa kusesalkan, beberapa kubiarkan. Tentunya banyak dari mereka kuharapkan tetap tinggal atau kembali suatu hari. Karena tanpa mereka, aku bukanlah siapa-siapa. Tanpa mereka, aku merana mengenangmu.

Teruntuk dirimu, aku masih di sini, berharap kamu kembali. Kurindu tatapanmu yang angkuh namun ramah. Kurindu tawa sinismu yang terdengar renyah. Kurindu senyummu, kurindu genggaman tanganmu. Aku rindu menjadikanmu alasan kebahagiaanku.


Confusion on Saturday night:
Dear someone… Could I to be with you?!

The Story Ending

Bagaimana kelanjutan kisah Beutiful Princess & si Farmer? Apakah si Farmer akan dimakan si Dragon juga?!

Beautiful Princess & Prince Charming (part II)

- By the farmer assistance, the guards finally take down the dragon, from far the princess see that the dragon finally defeated.
- The prince also see it, the dragon was defeated. "Don’t worry princess they will catch up us at the castle"
- The prince and the princess finally reach the kingdom. The king and the queen are really happy to see their lovely daughter again.
- The princess still not believed that she can come back home... Even she has already safe, she still thinking about the farmer & guards.
- The King said "Dear prince, I'm really grateful... because of u our lovely daughter can be safe from the dragon"
- “Dear... finally u meet yours Prince Charming! Aren’t you happy” said the King. The Prince smiles to her, the princess smile back at him.
- The princess feels this is "not right"... even the prince just like "the prince charming" on her dream... but...
- "I can save her because your supporting me with many guards… and also the farmer who gives us many information about the dragon"
‎- "The farmer? How do you know about the farmer?" the princess asked her father and also the prince.
- King: "He came by himself here, he said that we should saved u as soon as possible... then he shared a strategy to defeat the dragon"
- Princess: "He...what? But, why? Did he ask money or job?" King: "He's not saying any request, but I will give him a big present!
- Suddenly, a guard comes & tells them that the guards are back from the battle. "Please find the kind farmer from me, I want to meet him"
- after waiting so long, the guard finally come back to the princess but he's alone. "Where is he?"
- Guard: "I'm sorry princess, but the other guard said that he isn't return with them"
- "Did something happen to him? Don’t tell me he..." the princess can't continue it... "Don't tell me he..."
- "No. He's not dead", that guard see that princess is really worried about the farmer, then other guard come.
- "Princess... he is a battle guards that fought the dragon in forest. U can ask him!" the guard explains about the other guard.
- The battle guard said."After the battle end, I told him to come to the castle. But he refused and says he wants to go home..."
- The King hears what the battle guard says to the princess "Really? I want to give him some prize!"
- "I already told him, my King but he just smile and leaved" said the battle guard.
- Princess: “I was worried, he just a common people, how can he fight the dragon! Thank God he is save...”
- battle guard: "Actually he‘s an ex kingdom guard. So don’t worry, just a little scratch like that wouldn’t hurt him"
- Princess : "an ex guard?", battle guard : "He gets really bad injured in one of our battle, after that he can’t fight well as guard"
- Battle guard : "He becomes common people, he lives alone in the forest... as a farmer and a hunter."
- Princess: "He didn’t say something?", battle guard : "No... He just said the most important thing is the princess was saved"
- The princess feels touched… then she’s cry and say, “father… “
- “Father… even he just a common people in your Kingdom. He’s not a handsome man, he‘s not a prince…
- "..... But he is a prince charming. Deep inside his heart he is my prince charming that I looking for"
- Princess: "the prince charming that I need is not from the appearance but from his heart."
- She looking at the prince from another country "sorry..." The King ask "Are u sure my princess? Is it a debt or what?"
- "No it's not a debt.. He's kindness and caring touched me.." The King looking into her eyes, "I see..."
- "Do you know, where I can find him?" the princess asked the battle guard
- Far far a way in the forest… There is a wood house. It's the farmer house, looks like he's busy treating his wounds
- He sit in a chair, in front of his house. "Damn... even is not a bad wound, but it's still hurt!"
- "After long time not being in a battle, lack skill I guess! How pathetic ccckk...," the farmer keep babbling.
- "I don’t think so...I think you're great! You're the brave one, the best knight of all"", the farmer really surprised hear that voice!
- He really surprised, actually he almost fall from his chair "Wh-what... princess what are u doing here! How can you...."
- The farmer face kinda blush after hear what princess said to him, He become clumsy, "Why you're here? How can find my house?"
- The princess walks near him, looking into his eyes and smile, "Uhm... I won't tell you, how about guess it? Guess why?"

- End -

Thx for Yo-chan who's already story telling this cute story for me *hug & kiss*

Beautiful Princess & Prince Charming

Ceritanya, sekitar dua bulan lalu aku ngobrol dengan sahabatku yang seorang jurnalis (editor) di sebuah majalah anak". Trus, sengaja aku minta dia untuk telling story. Pingin mengulang masa kecil lah... Dulu abahku sering mendongeng sih. Aku sendiri sempat bercita-cita jadi pembaca dongeng. Lagipula, kesempatan kan mumpung punya sahabat yang bisa nulis/mengarang cerita anak" :p

Gayung bersambut, sahabatku itu (I called her Yo-chan) mengiyakan. Akhirnya, hampir setiap malam via twitter dia mendongengi aku dengan dongeng bikinannya. Yach, sekalian menghibur sahabatnya yang sedang galau lah. Hahahaa.. And her story so cute, I think.

So, this is the story...

Beautiful Princess & Prince Charming (part 1)

- Once upon a time... in Neverland kingdom lives a beautiful princess... She's waiting for prince charming.....
- One day… an evil dragon come and kidnap the princess...
- She's crying... and asked the dragon "Why you take me? What do you want from me?"
- The dragon, said "I hear you're waiting for prince charming, so I help you to find him...
- "if he really you're prince charming then he will defeat me and save you... if he can’t he will end as my dinner"
- " I love eating a handsome man hahahahaha," said the dragon. The dragon take the beautiful princess to her nest, "can't wait for delicious food come haha." *perhatian ni naga betina wakaka*
- The news about the princess and the evil dragon has known by all people around and across the country.
- Few days later... a handsome man come near the nest *prince from other country* --> "I will save u… my princess", he said loudly.
- When the prince come near the nest, suddenly the dragon come up with fire in her mouth
- Aaarrggh... The prince scream loudly, he never know that the dragon is really big & scary
- The prince run! But it's too late because the dragon’s already catch him... He ends as a dinner. :p
- When the dragon finished her dinner, a young man is looking at her from the forest.. He looks like a farmer, nothing special.
- "what do you want? I don’t like eat a dirty and ugly man like u!", the young man said "I'm just walk through the forest for haunting
- Dragon : " then get lost!", young man: "okay… sorry" he left the forest after looked the princess, her face is really pale shocked
- poor princess.. She's crying for the prince... She doesn’t want to be save if someone must dead like that…
- few days later, some of royal guard from the princess kingdom come to dragon nest... They wanna save the princess.
- All of the guards fighting the dragon... unfortunately the dragon win. . The guards can’t win against the dragon fire blow…
- Suddenly the ugly farmer comes near the guards corpses. The dragon’s saw him and scream "What do you want! I told you not come near us"
- "So-sorry... I just wanna take their clothes. I think I can sell it... I need money", then he runaway after glance at the princess…
- The dragon become very angry, "I'm gonna eat u!" When her mouth comes to bite the farmer, he dodged it by jumping to other side.
- Before the dragon turn around, he jumps to dragon face and take of the sword from her eye. He stabs the sword on the other eyes!
- The princess saw everything he did. Then, "Let's go princess. I'll take u to your kingdom right now. Your safety is our priority!"
- "But, how about the others? That farmer! I'll stay!", but the prince from another country say, "I'm sorry but we will leave now"
- the prince takes her with his horse, then 2 guards following them. The princess can't take her eyes from the farmer.

to be continue...

Love isn't

Cinta itu indah, namun ternyata tak selalu seperti itu
Cinta itu manis, namun kadang justru membuatmu menangis
Karena cinta kamu bersemangat untuk melakukan sesuatu.
Karena cinta pula kamu bisa menjadi terpuruk.
Malas makan, malas bekerja, malas bersosialisasi..
tak ada lagi yang penting bagimu di dunia ini. Kamu menjauh dari segalanya. dari semuanya.
Kamu menjadi bodoh.
Tapi...
Cinta yang pahit itu hanyalah sementara. Percayalah.
Karena kamu hanya belum menemukan seseorang yang akan menjadi belahan hidupmu selamanya.
Seseorang yang akan berbagi tangis dan tawanya bersamamu.
Seseorang yang akan melengkapi kekuranganmu.
to completely you.
Yakini itu.
*begitulah aku berkata pada diriku sendiri*

Love isn't always.. as you see it
Love isn't always.. as you dream it, should be
Love isn't always.. gonna find you
But this is love,
Cause you're all I'm thingking of
(Love isn't by Same Same)

Lupa

Lagi-lagi Aku Lupa Rasanya Jatuh Cinta!

Apakah seperti menikmati lezatnya ice cream

Atau takjub memandang sunrise di tepian pantai?

Aku sepertinya lupa pernah merasakannya…

Gadis dengan Air Mata yang Menggantung

Gadis itu selalu duduk di sudut ruang ini. Kadang dia hening dengan buku bacaannya sambil sesekali menyeruput cappucino hangat, selalu minuman itu yang dipesannya. Namun terkadang dia hanya menerawang, memandang jalanan dari balik jendela tempat dia duduk.

Kulihat, ada cairan bening menggantung di pelupuk matanya. Aku tahu dia berusaha untuk menahannya agar tidak jatuh, agar tidak ada yang melihat bahwa dia sedang bersedih. Namun, kadang tak tertahan. Bening air mata itu jatuh, membasahi pipinya. Entah kesedihan apa yang melandanya. Sedang patah hati kah dia? Stress memikirkan pekerjaan kah dia? Aku hanya bisa bertanya dalam hati duka apa yang sedang dideranya.

Hari ini kulihat lagi dia duduk di sudut yang sama. Biasanya dia tak pernah memandang isi ruangan, terutama memandangku. Tapi, kali ini dia tersenyum ke arahku."Gadis yang manis," begitu pikirku. Senyum dengan lesung pipit yang menggantung membuat dia begitu cantik. Tapi air mata itu masih menggantung disana. Namun, kali ini dia tak malu lagi membiarkan air mata itu jatuh.

"Itu yang terakhir," katanya. Setelah itu, aku tak pernah lagi melihat air mata menggantung di pelupuk matanya.

Akhirnya, aku memberanikan diri berbincang dengannya. Kutanya, "Bagaimana bisa air mata itu tak lagi ada?"

Dia menjawab, "Aku mengeringkannya."

"Dan hatimu?"

"Kukunci rapat. Kuncinya bahkan kubuang jauh. Tapi aku percaya, akan ada yang menemukannya. Dia akan datang dan membuka lagi hatiku."